I haven't blogged in a while, to be honest I've been spending too much time procrastinating, having hundreds of creative ideas in my head on how to grow my small business at the same time figuring out how to support myself in the present while adjusting to living in a new country with no back up plan.
Everyday is a blur now and I realise I spend very little time on doing the things I really wanted to do while also being constantly distracted by mindless scrolling from my phone. I've been trying to understand my purpose, my Ikigai. I know deep down what it is I want, what it is I want to do and I would like to leave behind before my time here is up but how do I get there, where do I start.
What is ikigai 生き甲斐 ? It is the Japanese concept for giving a person a sense of purpose, a meaning in their life, a reason to live. The older I get the more I see the world filled with corruption but actually it's always been like this we only see it as we become adults, it's left me wondering why am I really here and what is my purpose.
As children we all had dreams of what we want to be when we are older, mine first was becoming a doctor because that's a dream my parents fed me when I was very small. Slowly as I got older I found myself getting lost in creative activities, making clothes, painting and creating art. This was frowned upon as these are subjects only a few manage to make money from. But I didn't listen and I kept going and I ended up pursing the dream to become a fashion designer. It sometimes feel like a really superficial subject, how we dress should really be the least important thing on the planet, considering it's one of the worst industries that's damaging our planet and one of the biggest players in human exploitation. I personally have experienced working in a sweat shop for no pay under the illusion of you will get a job or we will help you get a job.
But yet I still love clothes, making clothes has made me feel alive. Wearing clothes you like allows you to express yourself without saying anything, I've seen my clothes put a smile on a strangers face. So I want to use my creativity and love for clothing to make the world better, the things I can do maybe small but it's a step in the right direction. Right now I'm barely surviving it's been a year since I moved country and focused on my brand for the first time and I'll admit I haven't been making the best choices when it comes to managing my time but today that changes, I'm going to take a full week break from my phone and focus on creating, creating all the things that have been running through my mind and I will be back here to show you... whoever ends up reading this (if anyone lol) and i'll tell you how it went without a phone for one week. Obviously I will be checking my emails in case any angels buy my clothes, but the mindless scrolling ends here. Maybe I'll post daily blog updates, maybe lets see.
Thank you to all who have been supporting my work, you don't how many times I contemplate on giving up but my heart never wants to and every time someone makes a purchase from my site it's like the light at the end of the tunnels comes on.
